college

I cannot believe that it is already two thousand and seven. Time flies so fast. I have already been in America for two years. This is my second semester in Montclair State University. My first semester was going much faster than I thought. I have not recognized all the buildings in this college yet. I used to be a very quiet girl. Everything I do I have to get the permission from my parents first. I do not like to explore new things. I prefer that everything stays the same and does not change too much.
When I first got into college, I was very excited about college life. It is a new start in my life. Moreover, it is important and it will affect my life a lot. I tried my best at the beginning of the first semester. I was afraid to fall behind among others. I worried too much so that I studied the book before and after the class. I always finished the homework right after the class if I got the time. Nevertheless, after a few weeks. I found that the classes are so boring and the tests are somewhat easy. Professors would not give any replay to your homework. What I got is just the grades. I know that he might tell you the information if I had asked. However, I just do not understand that what the homework for in that way of grading is. Several times I questioned myself what can I learn in college, the knowledge or how to fit in the society, or maybe the ability of studying by ourselves. I spent a lot of times with the computer because I felt lonely I missed home. So I find a way chatting to Chinese friends. After that I start to love stay with computer. When my friends are sleeping, I played games instead. After a few weeks, I started to addict to computer games. I started to sleep during the classes. I even found a perfect excuse for playing games, which is computer science, is my major, staying with the computer is the best way to study my major. I do not care about homework and tests any more. I do not even have the time to care about it. My college target changed to pass the class instead of getting straight As. Next semester will be a new start. I totally ruined my first semester. I know that play too much computer games is not a good thing for me. I should go out with friends and spent time with studies. But I just can’t change that right now.
I know that the reason why I change is that I still can not fit in America. The language is the biggest problem. I am too shy to speak to others. Generally I avoid to speak to others on purpose. I don’t want to have a lot of troubles so I chose to not bother others. I became not care of anything even the grades.

As I planned, I passed all the classes easily. I found that I had wasted not only the money but also the precious time. I remembered that my father always tell me that do not always blame other, find the problem from yourself. I did not study not any professors’ faults hard. I knew the problem was on me. Only that I do not want to face it. I keep running away from the facts but I do not like to solve it. I still remember the first year when I came to America I missed my home so much. I called my father and grandma almost every week. I wrote letter s to my friends sometimes. Now, look at myself, I really changed. I will not call home until my father called me to tell me that it is the time to call my grandma. I do not even like to spent the ten minutes to send E-mails to my friends which are more faster and convenience than the written letters. Gradually I have accepted the life like this.
If I can, I would like to change it. I wish I could be the girl two years age. But I am not sure if I have the determination and persistence to do it. As I said, I do not like to change the way I live I am already accustomed to.

MYSELF

My name is Yu Zhao. I was born in China. I have been in America for two years. This is my second semester in Montclair State University. My major is Computer Science. I like the reading class because this class is different than others. It's not boring and we could have fun while learing. I hope that I could improve my English a lot through this semester.